I am an eclectic one. A living lover at my best and when choosing fear...I grab onto pathways or where my heart guides me. There is not ONE way to anything...or a "definitive line" to source. Being programmed with a "cookie-cutter" mentality, I have WANTED one cut and dry way. Give it to me, God; you know that I will DO IT. Don't you know that I have always been a "good" little girl and do as I am told? Ahh...if it were only that easy. Well, it is simple when we realize "It's only life after all," and to not take the craziness so seriously.
The mind wants to scare the crap out of us, paralyzing, in fact. It gives us the illusion that our walls are talking and caving in on our heads. We have suddenly entered the Twilight Zone, destroying our lives and the choices we make. Fear is not something OUT THERE; it is created by us based on our life's contract and childhood. Our family and friends will often innocently validate our fears, making them "seem" more real. We will create more confusion and shut down. You will defend: But wait a second....I "feel" safe. Sorry friends, fear gives us the illusion of safety, and we will inevitably be stuck doing the same thing over and over.
We are the creators of our life. Freewill to choose Love or Fear. Hot or cold. When we listen to Fear's thunder, it becomes a hurricane. When we hear Love's subtle whisper, it gets louder with patience and practice. Fear keeps us brooding like a child; it is the "Boogie Man" in the closet and we have forgotten to open the door. Love helps us grow up and become an adult, taking responsibility for our life. Man oh man, growing pains do hurt though.
Let's review the 10th Pathway To A Higher Consciousness:
"I am continually calming the restless scanning of my rational mind in order to perceive the finer energies that enable me to unitively merge with everything around me."
I have used this pathway a lot this week, praying for the "finer energies" to lead me to the well of peace and serenity. I needed to LET GO, and then I heard. I was led to a song (at the end of blog) and to the answer I so desperately wanted. Thank you. I have made the decision to do something that I have NEVER done before. I will reveal it when the timing is right. And boy oh boy, will I have a lot to write. Life is becoming more exciting by the minute. Why? Because I am choosing...LOVE.
I will need this next pathway to grab just in case I slide backwards...
11th Pathway: "I am creating the awareness that in choosing fear, I relinquish my joy of loving."
With all my heart,
"Closer I Am To Fine"